Saturday, June 23, 2007

Whats Wrong With Me

Its being a while i guess. And ever since the CT over and Holidays come i have being just working non stop. Althought Its not ranting bout work again. But its what i have felt, and experienced. From where i worked.

I could say its the first time i have done something so daring, and something which i normally constrain myself not to do at all. But i believe that since there is not much time left i better get it over and done with then to regret it later.

But ended up just like the other times. I broke the only connection. Failed to reliased that since the start i am merely nothing more than what it is. Sometimes i have to blame myself for not maturing enough to face this part of the society.

I take it to the fact that i am too rash, sometimes too impatient about this things.

It really pains me off, not due to failure but the fact that i never learn my lessons from the pervious encounters. Really wicked enough.

Still after much talk with people, Its part of my learning up, looking at the calender. My last moments as an 18 Year old is stepping into a closing curtain soon. Maybe its bye bye to childhood and hello to adult hood already.

Life being bored. But ill just post up this few pictures taken this few days.










Wednesday, June 06, 2007

~ Eternal Wing ~ |悠久の翼|


/===Kanji Version===/
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/===悠久の翼===/
/===歌:原田ひとみ===/
/===作詞:酒井神和===/
/===作編曲:天門===/

遠く空 窓の向こう
届かない 雲見ていた

壊れてく 心癒す
優しい音 聞こえた

てのひら零れ落ちる 夢の欠片
無くした答え探すため 走り出す

めぐりあう時を越え
二つの手 重なる

甦る想い出を
この胸に抱いて


忘れた 背中探す
寂しさを 終わりにして

信じてる でも不安で
あなたの声 夢見た

傷つく事を恐れ 作る笑顔
壊せる勇気紡ぎだす 二人なら

凍てついた痛みさえ
ぬくもりに変えれば

鐘の音は 鳴り響く
果てしない 未来に

舞い上がれ 空高く
翼など 無くても


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/===Romanji Version===/
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Tooku sora mado no mukou
Todokanai kumo miteita


Kowareteku kokoro iyasu
Yasashii oto kikoeta


Te no hira koboreochiru yume no kakera
Nakushita kotae sagasu tame hashiridasu


Meguriau toki wo koe
Futatsu no te kasanaru


Yomigaeru omoide wo
Kono mune ni daite

Wasureta senaka sagasu
Samishisa wo owari ni shite

Shinjiteru demo fuan de
Anata no koe yume mita

Kizutsuku koto wo osore tsukuru egao
Kowaseru yuuki tsumugidasu futari nara

Itetsuita itami sae
Nukumori ni kaereba


Kane no ne wa nari hibiku
Hateshinai mirai ni

Maiagare sora takaku
Tsubasa nado nakutemo


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/===English Translated Version===/
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/===Yuukyuu no Tsubasa (Eternal Wing)===/
/===Vocal: Harada Hitomi===/
In the distant sky beyond the window,
I saw clouds which I could not reach.

I heard a gentle voice
That heals my breaking heart.

The fragments of a dream spill from my hand.
To find the answer I have lost, I break into a run.

Across the times we are reunited,
With my hands

I hold dear in my heart
These recurring memories.

I search for the figure I have forgotten,
So that I may put an end to this loneliness.

I believe in it – but it is with unease
That I heard your voice in a dream.

Afraid of getting hurt, I put on a smile.
The courage to surmount our difficulties will grow, if we’re together.

If only I could change
This frozen pain into warmth…

The sound of the bell reverberates,
Into the future that knows no end.

Soar up high into the sky,Even if there are no wings to do it with

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Credits to KonoeKonoka for his work on the Kanji and the Translation. Romaji Version from AnimeLyricsdotcom.

Enjoy

Sunday, June 03, 2007

ef - a fairy tale of two

I have to say. That this, strikes me again hard.

Not to be saying like as if its the same as what i have felt in "Ichigo 100%". But more rather. This thing had a bigger impact on me.

"ef - a fairy tale of two"
is a Visual Novel done by the "Minori" Company (Its a Visual Novel/ Eroge Company)
To be exact, you could call this a typical 'H' Game. But trust me, just judging it from its catagory is a BIG mistake to make. Because few of this titles, there are fantastic stories which cannot be brought out when shifted to an anime platform. And even if it contains 'H' , most of this scenes when about to be shown, they will seek the player to skip the part or continue it. Pefect for people who goes for the story line instead of mindless 'H' Scene viewers.

The reason why i wanted to talk about it, was because of its story, currently finished the First Chapter of the game. Which concludes the story of Miyako Miyamura and Hiro Hirono.

What you could tell from this game typically is that it is in a "High School" background Love Story. With stunning Graphics and also nice Voice Work. But what really is worth me running around screaming "URG" is the storyline.

Its not your typical lovu lovu storyline. But instead its more of trying to find, what is the important thing to you in your life. As quoted in game

'No matter how much you treasure her, people will vanish one day. Even with countless prayers of hopes, there will never be Eternity.
Having joy with the person you treasure the most, even when painful things happen it will feel real. After that, it will dissappear, with a speed that you can never catch up.
For the sake of not regretting at the moment of parting ways, please give her the piorities, trutly piority her first.'

*======Updates======*
Was looping the Op 'Eternal Feather' today since i step out of the house, till now mugging for TP in the school Library. Appreantly, while listening i have figure out most of the things which was covered in the first Arc.

'When you have sieze of what you wanted, you will be forced, even if you do not want it to. To lose what you have being treasuring till now.'

'Its because when you choose freedom, you are not bounded. But as your not bounded to anything. You lose what others call "Home", and have to be all by yourself. Alone.'

'Do not hate yourself, but because hating yourself will just make you stop in your tracks, never moving forward.'

To me, the most important i found out is.

'What is it that you dream of'

As i listen to the song, what it feels like telling me, is as of what i said above. I reliased, that i have no obvious dream, nor goal which I am working myself forward to. As a result, what i am merely doing is living life off as how it is. Just like Kei, as an empty shell which stays and not moving. But as it is an empty shell, I am given a chance to rebirth. To aim for another Goal, another Dream.

I have no Dreams, nor Goal for me to work to. But i have reliase too, that the easiest way, is to focus on where i am always at, the 2 other place which i can call myself at home, instead of being at solitude. Which is School and my Work place.

From Encounters, there you gain experience, as you gain experience, you will come to reliase that there are different things you want in life, and from there. Using those hard earned Experience, you get to choose. What is the Goal that you wanted to aim for.

I hope, that its not late now. For me to start, looking around, where I can have a chance to knock in to my Goal, my dream which i will spend the rest of my life pursueing for. Maybe. By then I could be really what i wanted. A more matured self. Rather than the me who is still greifing over my own Childish past, the past which haunts me non stop.

*==========End of Update=====*

Not to forget, the Op of this game just RKWS.




Enjoy. For the Fairy Tales which lies in this world.