Life Goes On

Today, I felt that, I must do a post on what happened.

I felt Initially irritated today. As I am suppose to meet my friend to go to the PC Show. but when i arrive at the meeting point late, i found them missing. I tried finding them, but with my phone cut off the connection, it makes life hell.

I tried to ask for Coin Phone, but guess its not easy at a place like Pasir Panjang.
I wanted to borrow phones from strangers. But it would be tough as my looks possibily will led them into suspicion (-_-)

When they called, was when i was actually irritated and felt like going home.

He informed that his at China Town Square. So i went over to meet up

Reason?

While 1 guy meet up the other one, his Dad was just nice on the way to chinatown. So they took a ride down there. And since he thought that my phone was 'Spoilt' (as per my mistake in convying the message to him the day before) so he called my mum.

Never the less, it was resolved and we went to the PC Show.

Those were not the important points.
What is important is, I felt that, when never i am with them again, i felt like we never change. Or more rather we never change how we are towards each other.

Not like now in poly, where we have to deal with different person differently. We do not need to do that, no facade between us, no hiding of truth between us, but rather how we are together since the past till now.

This is what i felt good. And what keeps my spirits high.

To be exact i owe them last time, for the enjoyable times i have in Secondary School. As I am not that welcomed in class, I have to seek friends out of class most of the time. And there i have them to accompany them.

It feels nice, when you can shake down all your protection, and just be yourself sometimes. Without the fear for backstabs.

Personally i hate Backstabs and also People who Tua me. Thats what drives me mad the most.

And when i heard this song, i felt that. Life is just like that, You have to move on, with what you have. Sometimes going back, but still moving on.

Happy times comes, Sad time comes, Stress Time comes, Problems Comes. But still, Life Goes on.

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Name : Live Goes On
Artist : Mika Arisaka
Lyrics

Every time I look up into the tear-filled sky,
A fickle wave of blue binds my chest.
If it's destiny,
I will leave behind the days
That I've fought till the end of sorrow.

Life Goes On, passionately.
As long as I am alive,
Even if I were to lose sight of my real self,
Life Goes On,
I want to protect it.
My heart was shattered,
And in these eyes that have seen true sorrow,
Love is overflowing.

The flowers that bloom in winter paints a misty landscape.
"Strength is tenderness" I sang.
For what and for who
Do you continue to fight for now?

Life Goes On, be reborn.
If we unknowing meet again,
I don't want to lose you a second time, butLife Goes On.
In this era,
As long as I am given life,
I catch it with these arms and this chest.
Believe in love.

I can feel your heart in motion,
deep down in your mind and passion.
Life goes on and on, we love each other in the sadness of time.

Life Goes On, passionately.
As long as I am alive,
I want to share this light with you again someday.
Life Goes On,
I want to protect it.
Send your prayers towards the sky.
In these eyes that have seen true sorrow,
Love is overflowing.

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Credits - Gendou

Messy Thoughts

Its 1.56Am shown on my Com. I haven sleep yet, and i do not feel sleepy yet.

I have being spundgling myself on NOTDAM. Just some WC3:FT Custom Map and i have kinda find it ok enough for me to go on for a while.

But the thing i reliased is that soon things just get bored.

I choose to go home early now adays.

I choose to Cook more then buy out.

I choose to stay indoors except work.

I guess i am just getting lazy now. =

Work has being tedious, but fun still. School has being a place where my money goes to all the time. IRC eats up my social life, by replacing itself as it. Seems sad. But i do not seem to be irk of it yet.

Bjorn - Not i do not want to link you up. But rather this is my personal blog and i keep clear off my 2 Different Online Life. I do not like mixing, Messing it up is something i would try to avoid.

But seriously. With the things going on now. I guess i am slowly stepping down and stop watching shows. Starhub seems to be my best friend again. Msn is my enemy (POP UPS!) and Lancraft is getting better. uTorrent can start rotting, and i better sleep now before my mother reach home to start nagging.

Life is like.... Not Fair?

Today has got to be the day where my Brain went crazy during morning, recovered during noon, and go nuts in the evening and dead by now.

Was irritated with my headset this morning, its not working normally. Until i manage to temperory fix it for the time being. God Grace me, I haven had the extra $$ to go get myself a new high end one. Till then please keep this alive '_'

Was totally pissed off with the India Indian Family which came over since sat. Irritating Fucking Mother Bastards. Came late, expect us to serve them, take any table they like and make a fucking mess (not fogetting the floor) and leave. Good Job

Ever wonder if they reliased that, when they go to a 4 - 6 Star Hotel for Stayover, and when having Breakfast, they are pratically representing their whole country in respect. As if its a Mini-UN meeting. Other people from other countries are normally present. Won't They ever find that when they do not pratice good table manners, they are throwing their country's face away? Good Job done there.

And was Also irritated with the fact that I am always lossing my temper this days. Too much stress ill attribute to it. But not interested in dwelling on stress origin. Makes more stress than trying to reduce them. But throught this 2 days of working i was thinking.

Is this world Fair?

I once read off books

"The World is Unfair to begin with, The reason why God does it is so that Humans can fill up the Unfairness with their Love"

But appreantly, when i was thinking throught from most experience, its not really true for most case.

(I am now taking on a pespective of a Christian)

The reason why God might have initiated the Flood in the first place, was maybe because he found out that humans are beings which make use of their advantage over others, to favor them in every way they can. Making use of such Advantage given to them, in an Abusing way.

True to it, we can see that its how this world operates now. All by the means of manipulating one and other to get jobs done. Be it legally or Illegally.

A company gets famous, sells more stock when its product is good. But we do not say that the Creator of that Product, but the company.

A Loan Shark forces a Person in debt under him to sell his Daughter for Prostitution.

Both case we can see that its like that, when 1 is at an advantage there must be someone be in a Disadvantage. Seems like a vicious Cycle.

Guess ill just Rubbish till now.

Else ill just overslept FCS again. For the Third time.

Given Up

Title : Given Up
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Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like i'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worse enemy

I've Given Up
I'm Sick of Living
Is there Nothing you can Say
Take This All Away
I'm Suffocating
Tell me what the Fuck is wrong with me

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm Scared
I'm not prepared
I Hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
and You don't Care

Put me out of my Misery

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I just felt like, putting it out, about how i just feel like giving up. Its not something i can say is proud of, coz giving up in the first place means i am a loser already. But situation was clear after all. That its a matter of whether the self reject the truth or the truth gets it on the self on it. I decide to face the reality of the truth and take it on behalf of what i am no able to cope with all the time. Thats it.

StarCraft II =/= Hoax!

Its true now, Starcraft II is now in production, God Preys they dont make it end up like Ghost.

Click here to go to the Site

I Live for Aiur!

Valentine's Day

Title - Valentine's Day
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My insides all turned to ash / so slow
and blew away as i collapsed / so cold
a black wind took them away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

i used to be my own protection / but not now
cause my path had lost direction / somehow
a black wind took you away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
and the ground below grew colder
as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

so now you're gone
and i was wrong
i never knew what it was like
to be alone

on a valentine's day

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Side notes :
Althought it was finished at the Laurel Studio, "Valentine's Day" retains most of the original music and vocals that were recorded during the writing phase. Infact, althought the band experiment with re-recording most of their early demos, the earliset recordings were often chosen to make the album.
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This is another song, from 'Minutes to Midnight" which i favor.

I am starting to get use to the singing style, more rather, removing the japanese song listening habit all the time.

What I've Done Part 2

By : Linkin Park

Title: What I've Done

In this farewell
there's no blood
there's no alibi
cause i've drawn regret
from the truth
of a thousand lies

So let mercy come
and wash away

What I've Done
i'll face myself
to cross out what i've become
erase myself
and let go of what i've done

put to rest
what you have thought of me
while i've cleaned this slate
with the hands
of uncertainty

so let mercy come
and wash away

what i've done
i'll face myself
to cross out what i've become
erase myself
and let go of what i've done

for what i've done
i start again
and whatever pain may come
today this ends
i'm forgiving what i've done

i'll face myself
to cross out what i've become
erase myself
and let go of what i've done

What i've Done

Forgiving What i've done

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Just feel like Posting about the lyrics of 'What I've Done' . Since its one of the most well known of this long awated album. Will soon be posting about 'Bleed It Out' and 'Given Up'.
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Side Notes:

One of the last song finished for the album, the lyrics for this song were intended to work on many levels, including freedom, art, and death metaphors.

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Its being long since i heard of Linkin Park's Crew. Mainly Chester's Screaming (lawl).
Althought this album feels abit wierd (due to the naming issue) but over all, once settled down for their singins style, it gets catchy.

To me, this album came at the right time. To me Linkin Park Tracks use to be my 'self checking' songs, mainly because that the songs they sang ring with my internally well, more like as if i am facing a mirror and watching myself from the song.

it also bought out the fear of the past hauntings on me.....

What I've Done

Its easy for the title to tell, yes i have bought the newest album of Linkin Park.

Minutes to Midnight.

But my aim is rather, a dedication of this song to Lemon.

Even thought she might not like Punk Rock or maybe Linkin Park but this song might suit your feelings on your post at May 14th.

Althought i prefer Given Up more.

But i felt that the song names are abit jumbled up. Either there is a hidden meaning to this or i am not sure bout it.

well, for now enjoy with it then.




~Linkin Park - What I've Done MV~

Enjoy.

慢慢

I do not just listen to Japanese Songs, but rather Chinese Songs too. But more rather, songs of an older generation than now. Althought not as backwards in time as compared to those that Kiat Kai listens to.

慢慢, is one of those songs i like to listen to. I remember buying this album after O's. When i still do not have a computer and just a CD Player. I use to buy CD's once every other week after collecting pay.

I do not need to explain about this song i guess, just listen to it and enjoy.

Kuroi Namida (黒い涙 Black Tears)

The big thing, Kuroi Namida (黒い涙 Black Tears). By Anna Tsuchiya.

Why is this a big thing? Its because its one of my favourite songs out of all the songs from the animated series of "Nana".

This song talks about broken love, which resulted in the withdrawal of feelings of all things related around. It talks about how one would not want to be hurt any more with
"I don't want things that can be broken anymore".

"I need something to keep on living
If I can't even believe in myself, what can I believe in?
The answer is so close I can't even see it"

How 1 felt lost when being abandoned by the most trusted for his/her life,
and also the fact that even if the solution is obvious, he/her will not belive it and is thus unable to "see" it.

Althought I liked it for its emoness, my friend said that its too shoujou. But ill let the listeners to tell themself, if this is good or not, even if its too shoujou.