Have Not Forgetten About You - Part 2

Ok, im back to continue the story... Its always nice to be looping emo songs when doing some typing |Track Looping now| ->Kuroi Namida By ANNA Tsuchiya, 3rd ending for the anime 'NANA'

He does not like a bedroom which is painted dark blue.

When night comes, L and C's family all get together in their house for a meal while bringing up all of their history like story telling, in an attempt to assist C in recovering her memory.

After that was a video viewing of them on a vacation. But all this was just watching of someone of similar face as C with a stranger having fun.

"Look how close you were with L, C can you remember anything?"

"Do you remember this scene? Try searching your memory, there must be an impression lefted behind."

"Yar, our brain is like a tap, after being turned off for so long, try to open it abit and it might be back."

C just felt tightnest in her chest, after saying sorry to the crowd, she head towards her room and closed the door.

L staggers with the crutches towards the room and saw her sitting down on the floor of the toilet with her head facing the toilet bowl making sounds heard from someone throwing up.

He sat on the bed looking at her.

"I cant get anything out." She turn her head over and added, "I'm sorry, i know everyone expects me to remember, but i cant do it."

L noded and consoles her."I have a life time to wait for you."

When C slept beside L, theres a feeling of sleeping beside a total stranger in her.

When his about to kiss her, he reliase that she was shrudding badly.

"Don't be afrid, we used to kiss before turning in." and he kissed her, but there was no reaction from her lips at all.

None of them can sleep.

C slowly moved her body away until theres atlease half a foot long distance between them while she used to hold onto him into her dreams.

In the end, due to respect for a female, "If theres a need, ill sleep on the sofa in the living room."

"Your actions are not convinent, ill go out.", after this she lefted the room immideatly with a pillow.

He laid on the bed, feeling all his energy sapped away, unable to even move his fingers for an inch.

Laying beside the bed was a photo of him and C, it was J who took it for them.

Its after a while he felt moisture on his face, L was crying.

The next morning, C entered the room.

"Are you awake?"
He shakes his head and answered. "I have not slept."
"Let me was you up ok? You're still handicap."

L tried alone, but it takes ounces of efford.

C heard water splashing on the floor."Are you taking a shower now?"

He replied loudly, "I'm used to shower once in the morning."

"I can't remember." was her answer.

L finally finished when she said. "You took an hour inside, let me help you next time ok?"

"You're not afrid of facing a stanger's naked body?" half jokingly, L replied.

But it pieced her heart.

"Sorry."

C went silenced for a few minutes while attempts to say something which stops upon reaching her lips.

"If you have anything to say, just speak it out."

"I'm afrid that you will scold me." She stares at the floor.

"I've being giving in to you, if you have some matters just spit it out."

"I want to move back home."

L stuns.

"I know as a Girlfriend, there is a duty to stay by yourside since you have not fully recovered yet. But the truth is, this is taxing on myself." She teared on the dining table, covering her face with her hands.

"Ok, if thats the case, go home! Don't worry much about me, if theres a need i might woo you from the start again."

Until this point, L then reliased how much he love C.

After C moved back, L would send her a bouquet of rose everyday while calling her 5 times a day on the second day.

The 1st call reaches her in the morning when he wakes up, asking if she had a good rest. When having his meals in the afternoon he will call again, the 3rd call lies around 5 pm. Once during dinner and the last call when his going to sleep.

It does not take long for L to notice how irritated C is when she picks up his call after he does this for few days.

J arranged them a few chances to go out for a date and brings them to their old hang out points, sometimes to the Karoke making them sing their usual duet love songs.

L recovered, but not C's memories.

He returns bact to his job as a markerter at the telecom company, the company is now selling a new type of digital handphone.

The engineering department was annoucing the details and functions of the phone.

"This phone is the first phone in history to have the most powerful memories, it can record as many as 300 contacts, phone data within 1 week's duration and even backing up all of it."

L raised a question, "What if the we were to change the battery in the phone or caused it to receive a large impact? Will it lose its memory?"

The speaker replied with a smile. "There is no need to worry at all, changing of battery does not harm its memory, as for the other situation you haved raised, just press this 3 buttons in this sequence and all of your data can be recovered."

How much does L wishes that C was just like this phone, all you need to do is just press some buttons and Volia, memories are backed.

"Is there more i can help you with?" Asked the speaker politely.

"Nothing more." L sighed.

Feeling the viberation around his waist, he found out C paged for him.

"I'm sorry, i'm in a meeting now, i know its after 5...."

"I am not blaming you for not calling me, i wanted to ask if you are free this evening?" C interuppted before L could finish.

"Yes, Yes"

It has being long since C asked L out.

"Lets go to that resturant ok? You used to love going to that balcony resturant for dinner."

"I am ok with any location."

L called for reservation at split second after hanging up.

Dinner was not romantic after all, all because of a single sentance C said.

"If losing my memories make you lost something, i am very sorry. Please understand that I too does not want this accident to occur. I understand the reason why the whole lot of you are rushing me, but your kindness is the reason why I am feeling uncomfortable."

L handed her a piece of tissue, tears are rolling down her cheeks as she finished her confession of pain.

"There were some nights, i forced myself to imagine how i used to love you, by reassembling all those information feed into me by your family and friends into a story of our own. Frankly speaking, i pity you, and myself too."

"Logic tells me i must stay with you for ur life time, but i cannot find back any of the feelings i have for you in the past."

"This feels like I'm touched by others story, I am really touched. But thats not my feelings after all."

L kept his head low all the time.

"Please don't force me, give me some time. Don't make me feel irritated or annoyed. I know I upset you with this things, I just wish to be more true to my feelings."

L noded, even thought this go against his own feelings and thoughts.

"I have faith that we can start over again. You use to love me like there is no forever."

In the hearts of C, she had gotten tired of the word of 'last time'. It had repeated more time than she can accept it.

"I found a new job selling souviners in a gift shop. Please stop picking up on the past story, i want a new start."

She picked up a glass full of water.

L finally relised that he have to accept this women infront of him, is the brand new C.

Even thought its killing him, but he cant stop himself from doing it. He waited for her to finish work half an hour earlier.

C shows a look with disgust the moment she lay her eyes on him.

"I hope I am not borthering you!" He walked into an empty gift shop.

"Please stop haunting me like a ghost will you?"

"Ok, ok." L was afrid of her showing her temper, so he lefted.

"Please give me some personal space." She request for it again.

J finally understand how helpless a man can get when she saw L.

"I felt like i am losing her."

Have not forgetten about you - Part 1

I am posting this short story i read off a book titled " A shear moment of folly", as it seems to be of an interesting topic, be it for people experienced in love or not yet.

How does it feels to be driving a car at the speed of 100Km per hour towards a clif?

It will feel like projecting the view outside the car upon a large screen , while you merge with the car at the same speed banging upon the barrier.

L thought that he will be plunging into the mountains with the whole car, beside him was his fiance C.

Crashing while Speeding, that should be almost the same as jumping down with a car. After multiple heavy impact, L lost his senses along with a portion of the time he had in his life time.

Its being 16 days after he woken up from the coma, what welcomes him first is not his friends or his family, but the feeling of tremendous pain. This amount of pain does not need to wait till he open his eye lids to start reliasing that his still alive.

He took nearly 5 mintues to look for the call button while having the first 3 minutes trying to accelerate the thinking process of his mind. It takes time and alot of stamina as well.

"Oh,your awake! Ill get the doctor now." was the reply of a middle age nurse who hurried to his ward upon noticing the call. While the nurse left the ward, L closed his eyes again.

He remebered of C.

"How is my Girlfriend?" came straight to the doctor's ear when they first exchange eyes.

"She...... is alright. You don't have to think too much." Replied the doctor, in a wierd fashion.

"Are you lying to me?" L asked in a low voice when the doctor lean towards him to check on him.

L pictured a news with the headlines of "C, dead before reaching the hospital."

'NO!'

"This is the first time God would have received his prayers. If God exists, please! Let C be Alive!"

He griped the doctor's arm with force, "Is my GIRLFIREND REALLY ALRIGHT?"

The doctor remain silence while casting a face towards the nurse.

"Mr L, we have informed your families, they are on their way now."

L Screamed "I WANT TO KNOW THE STATUS OF MY GIRLFRIEND!"

The doctor tidied his clothes, and answered in a simple way. "Please relax, she has already being discharged."

"We are not lying." added the nurse.

L's mother and sister came in half an hour later, tears were rolling the moment they see that his no more in coma.

"You went throughted 4 operation." From his sister whom applied a half day leave from the bank she work at.

His father whose working as a renovater in China could not make it in time.

"Ma, has C really being discharged from the hospital? How heavy are her injuries?"

L's mother holds on to his hands and said "Try not to think of anything, wait till you have recovered."

"But Ma, i want to see her. Could you ask her to come by and visit me? Is she resting at home? Can i give her a call?"

L's mum sighed as she turns towards the direction of her daughter.

"You have just awoken, you need more rest. Just leave all the other things until tomorrow.". L's sister is still keen on keeping him in suspence.

"I want to know! I want to know NOW!" He starts to get agitated, but the current condition of him now is like a machine in its relaxed position, the only feeling he can feel is still pain.

The nurse injected painkillers into his vains, which slowly increases the weight of his eyelids.

Partial of his concious are still alive when his in sleep. Those dreams he weaved felt like memories to him, with all of the past rolling infront infront of his eyes.

In the middle of the night, he woke up to find his sister sitting beside his bunk, waiting.

"I have asked mum to return home first. You want a glass of water?"

He shooked his head, "Can you inform C, ask her to water the plants."

L have being living with C for 1 year long, his being watering the plants he grow out of passion everyday.

"She went back to her family's place to live." Said, and feeds L a glass of water despite him not giving any answer to her question just now.

"Is she angry for me buying that second hand car which led to this tragic?"

She shakes her head, finally breaking the silence along with the suspense. She spoked "L, She only had a shock, and out of luck some scratches. But the main catastrophy is she cannot remember anything."

'What does not remembering anything mean? Everything she has ever remembered?'

'Or does it means that a period of time leaks away from her memory bank?

L does not understand. While his resting in the hospital, he hunts for more news about her situation.

"Not even her own family, to readapt with the enviroment, she quit her work at the duty free shop. Just last week she left for Singapore for a holiday with her parents." L's sister break the news for him.

"Get well soon! You and C need alot of time to re-estlibish the relation again." encouraging words from J.

J was C's best sister, and the appointed Bride's maid for the wedding. If there were no accident, they would have being celebrating their engagement 2 weeks from now.

"If you want her to recover faster, bring her to me!" declared L, "I am the best solution to her problem."

"The doctor suggest that she is still emotional unstable, its best to take it step by step."

"I want to decide with her if we are still going to get registered."

L won. 5 days later L finally met C after the whole ordeal.

"Don't get too worked up." The doctor warned.

The room was evacuated, except the couple.

C looks smaller by a size, and a more sharper chin after not seeing her for a few months.

Feeling sour in his nose, L grabbed C's hands and hold it tight.

"Ouch", and she frees her hands from his.

"Remember me?"

"yes" accompined with heavy nods.

"Really?"L grabs her hands again, just before he pulls off the next action of hugging her, she goes.

"I saw the photos we took together before."

L falls from the sky to the ground with a loud 'Thud' which only he can hears.

"You cant remember anything? What is left there in your brain?"

"Some memories from the distant past, but some fragmented memories. I remembered having a cat in the house before, but mom told me that is atlease 17 or 18 years ago, but i cant recognise any of my family members."

L starts to reincite those good old days. From they first encounter, first kiss, first time they had sex while on a trip. Even the fire which happened at home where he rushed into the kitchen to save her from the flames.

But the issue is she had forgetten any of those sorts. The scene looks like a stranger telling his own story.

"Lets start again after i get leave this place!"

C nods.

"I'll leave now, take a good rest."

L cant tell any emotion from that last sentence, it does not contains any concern from a lover.

"Lets cancel the engagement this coming fortnight." L suggested before she leave the ward.

He cant force a stranger to merry him, he is willing to wait for her to remember everything, or rebuild a new sets of memories.

3 weeks later, C did not come to pick him up after being discharged.

"She moved back to where both of you were staying 3 days ago to wait for you." Confirmed his sister.

L still requires the walking stick to assist him, C is willing to take care of him.

"I can temporary stay at your place." Offered L's mum.

He kindly rejected the offer, in order to buy time to patch up with C.

"Dad did renovated your place for free to welcome you home." L's Sister added while driving.

He had already had plans to renovated. But due to the purchasing of the second hand car, he gived up the previous idea.

The accident was a misfortuned as C gived up in arguing with L about the purchasing of the car.

Outside his door, his sister asked L to take a deep breath, while stepping into a new enviroment and readjust .

C opened the door within 5 seconds of pressing the door bell.

L was throwned a bomb shell.

The living room was painted orange, with curtains of yolk like colour.

"Who's idea was it?" asked L.

"Dad did what C requested." L's sister answered it before the rest.

"You used to say that all walls are suppose to be white in colour." Questioned L towards C.

L saw C displaying a confused expression, "Orange walls seem to be refreshing as well." L answered to himself.

The bed room was painted dark blue.

L looks at C, who seems to be intimidated by him and says "New feelings are not bad. We use to chat about looking for some newer feelings."

"I will end off here first, else it will kill people who are slow in reading."

Check Point - New Year

Just came back from Celebrating New Year with a bunch of friends (M.M, =[Z]en, Lone Ghost, Marc, Limli). I shall break it down to as much details before my eyelids start to auto - shut down.

Started the morning working. Piece of shit, the hotel is fully booked and was busy like crazy. Im pratically running while working but luckly, i finish work at 12.30.
Meet up with =[Z]en at 5.30 at Boon Lay Control station before setting off to wandering around SLT & SLS & Funan. By 8 we meet up with LG before shifting our location to the Cosafe itself.

The Cosafe had a major change, not only was there more variety of "Uniform", they also are more comfortable in working as they can engage the "Masters" (which are the customers) easier and in a more active tone.

Althought the place is packed like full, we got a table for 10 arranged for us as i booked earlier. There were only 4 of us but we were occupying a table for 10.... I feel bad at first and got pissed off with the rest for coming late. LG ordered a Sirlion Steak while me, =[Z]en and Marc took an order of cakes.

Our orders were served Very Late, the cakes took atlease 45 minutes while LG's sirlion steak got delayed as long as around 2 hours? It came at the same time as =[Z]en's Fish and Chips which he only ordered 20 minutes ago.

The Count down was very fast, we did not even reliase the time is 12 already when we got attacked by the maids with ribbon spray. We retailated back with me blowing ballons and exploding it with a steak knife (grins). They were so scared of it so much that when they saw me coming they run away. lol

To be Cont....